More History
August 29th, 2010
I have always been drawn to the spiritual side of life. My focus at a very early age was “where did I come from and where do I go when I die?” Being surrounded by people who had a definite lack of interest in that area of study, I soon gave up asking them for answers. I got a little jaded and decided I would just have to live to the end of my life to find out. Now remember, these were BURNING questions in my mind. Waiting 60 or 70 years was unbearable but I didn’t see any other option. This lead to a certain disdain for my life and living a life of insane risks. For example, I became a Union Ironworker. You know, those guys who put hi-rise buildings up. So there I was, at age 19, walking steel beams several hundred feet above the ground. Usually high on various substances like pot (my favorite at that time) alcohol, valium, etc. There were many areas I took equal risks yet the result was the same. I survived everything. I began to realize I must have some purpose for being here and I wasn’t going to get out of this life so easily.
Then I met a group of seekers in ‘88 or so. I was 27 and had all but forgotten my ardent desire to LEARN. These people weren’t only learning, they were directing their experience with love and compassion for each other and themselves. I was like a guy falling into a stream of pure cold water being unaware I was dying of thirst. I got to immerse myself into the learning, growing and becoming. I found a love for myself and my life I didn’t think possible. I learned I am a pretty great guy and I have a lot to offer the world! I fell in love with ME for the first time in my life. It changed everything! Instead of being angry in traffic, I could feel love for every other person out there.
Over the years, I let that part of myself go in the daily struggles of life, becoming a father, working to pay the bills, etc. Now I am being reminded that I can live my passion in service and help those who are ready to experience the joys I know firsthand.
6 comments on “More History”
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Similarly (I was going to say coincidentally, but there are not coincidences) I felt the same way at a very early age. Those memories are some of my earliest. I tend to be very contemplative and sometimes overthink things. Also, similarly, in my lifetime I have been in 25 car accidents…some quite serious…so I also have that feeling that I must have some purpose for being here. Although, as you know, I haved not learned my lessons quickly or easily…so I struggle on.
I am grateful that you have started your blog again because I love to share ideas with you. You have a lot of great insights.
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My experiences of asking fundamental questions about the universe and my existence here on earth as well as the true nature of life and death has been revealed.
Thanks!
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I remember a long time ago asking to learn life’s lessons easily, painlessly and quickly. Live began flooding with new insights and understandings. Changed the whole “painful lessons” ideology.
Thanks for being here, Patty!
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In the brief time I’ve known you, I’ve experienced first hand your gifts and what you offer this world. Your gifts are many and they are BEAUTIFUL. When we talk, you offer me the higher perspective in a way that is extremely accessible, always loving, clear, and undeniably connected to a source of immense wisdom and love. When I met you, I said to myself, “I don’t know what he has, but I want it!” How do you do it?? Looking forward to finding out
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I’m not sure how I do it, perhaps its something we all do to varying degrees. I hope my example can in some small way, inspire others to reach levels way beyond mine. I look forward to seeing where you end up, Melissa!
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